A revival of the lost blog.

It has been an extremely long time since I have blogged about anything. I've thought about it and thought that maybe I would start a new blog because this one makes my heart hurt at times when I think about it. But the truth is, this blog still fits.


So many changes have happened. I had to look back on my very last post to see where I had left off. In the last one, it had been 11 weeks since Dinky passed. Now it has been 18 months. How is it possible to have gone this long without looking back? The only reason I landed here was because a Facebook memory popped up from when he and I were in BCCH and and been meeting with people to discuss a G-Tube and the Keto diet. How has it been 2 years already since that happened? Time seems to speed right up.

Tink has finished pre-school so she's heading into Kindie in the fall. R2D2 is in his very last weeks of 4th grade. Summer vacation will be a long one.  G  is so active and busy I just don't even know how to handle it sometimes.

Yes. G. It turns out that a few months after Dinky passed we found out we were expecting a rainbow baby and boy did that throw  us for a spin. It was stressful and the pregnancy was so full of worry but at the same time I now feel like our family is almost 100% complete. It would be better if Dinky were here but if he was, G wouldn't be. It had been discussed and we had both agreed that there were going to be 0 babies after Dinky because he required so much care that it would be impossible.

Turns out Dinky had plans for us and sent us G. He was born 11/25/16 at 8lbs 12 oz. A healthy baby boy. It was amazing. I mean labour itself sucked but it was over with fairly quick. So G is almost 7 months. And he can, at this point in time: crawl on all 4s, pull to stand on everything, walk along furniture, push boxes and toys to walk places.. he is so busy and so active.

Life is still trucking along. Even if we don't have Dinky here with us. Yes. It is sad. But I don't feel such a deep black hole of grief every time I think about him. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad one. G has been a heart healer. Even if it drives me crazy that he's always on the go, always needing to be pulled from places. I do however wish he could just sit still for a few minutes!

That's all for now. I must go rescue him from the corner.